VH1 Pickup Artist 2 Casting

It's starting to get difficult for me to have all my friends in my mansion.

I have talked to most of the guys at the top and there's a reason why I'm in their mansion and they are on mine... however, I will promote you if you show the passion and commitment to get to the top.

WHY AM I HERE? SHOULD I QUIT THIS COMPETITION? I HAVE ASKED MYSELF ALL THIS QUESTIONS TODAY, HERE IS WHAT I HAVE TO SAY:

I was a virgin until age 19, never even kissed a girl or held hands.

I never had a girlfriend until I was in GRADUATE SCHOOL!!!

I have had three girlfriends in my life:

One was considerably older than me, and left me after 3 weeks.

One used me and got me into $15,000 of debt.

One cheated on me with four guys.

After each one, my friends reassured me that "I could do better. I could have any girl I like, etc." and then, all I can do is nod and pretend to believe their words.

I look in the mirror and I see an attractive guy, I listen to myself talk and I think I am interesting, but then I see my results and I feel worthless.

Oh, and now I am losing my hair, which is making me feel so bad that I hardly go out, and I don't shave or wear my nice clothes anymore.

I am developing major crushes on the three girls that I added to my mansion, and since none of them has even written me back, they have hurt me feelings to the point that I have to take them off my mansion just to be able to remain in the competition without heading into another prolongued depression.

Meanwhile, I remain a "catch" on paper... all the way to the point that I am starting to doubt that I will be allowed on the show, because of the perceived advantage I hold over the stereotypical "losers".

No offense, but at least all the ugly and fat people on here can look themselves in the mirror and deflect the blame for their failures on an external factor, which does not define who they are as a person.

If I am physically attractive and I get rejected by, no exaggeration, 99.99% of the girls I meet, how am I supposed to feel about myself?

I want to be on the show, because I am tired of lying to myself and the rest of the world about how great it is to be me.

I want to be the "Pick Up Artist", because I see a lot of Kozmo in myself. I know how he felt in the club the first night, when he couldn't work up the courage to talk to one girl.

I want to start living the life I always felt I deserved. I dream about winning this competition, because I'll get to make a positive impact for men all over the world that are suffering through mediocre, painful, and generally unfulfilling lives.

I hope that this journal entry helps those who doubt the legitimate need that I have to be a contestant on this show. If nothing else, I want to be looked upon as a peer in this community and not as an outsider who is trying to steal your glory.

Sincerely yours,

Cyrus

Four of you have voted for me today! Thank you, my goal is to get onto the leader board by the end of this week.

I have jumped in a little late, but I know there are lots of you that have love for me and I appreciate that.

I will not let you down guys. Thanks for the support!

Cyrus