VH1 Pickup Artist 2 Casting

Why i need this show:

The reasons i need this show are simple, yet complicated. they may not
seem so complex to the people who do not have these problems, and
fears, but they are to me.

Now heres my reasons:
Im a 22 year old male that has a "Social Disfunction".
I have the biggest problems when trying to meet new people, its hard
to explain but i freeze up, and get a fire in my gut and then the fear
takes over my mind. i cant get over the fear of rejection, i see
myself talking to beautiful women, but i cant act upon it.

When going in foe job interviews i crash most of them, because its
hard for me to be able to open up, and be talkative, even at family
functions, im the only one that doesn't really say anything, because i
feel like whatever i say, its going to make me look like an idiot. i
have heard and read that mystery can work wonders on people like me,
turn them completely around into a new & improved person.

I have friends, but few actual friends & not acquaintance's, i have
known them since i was in elementary school, and i have no problem
with them and being outgoing and being me.

I'm a funny guy, im artistic, i love music, im a huge geek, most of my
free time spent is on the computer, either it be me playing games, or
producing music, or doing art. its all on the computer. i have
problems leaving the house because of the lack of inspiration and
confidence that i need to go out and meet new people. but when i
do get out, its usually to go to the store or just taking taking care
of the bills etc..

I have noticed lately its allot easier for me to talk to men and get
to be friends with them and be outgoing around them. but i am just so
damned intimidated by women. more like i get intimidated by the people
who have power, have or control something i want

All in all, i need this show more than anybody can imagine, i have
lost jobs, began a disconnection with my family (which hurts badly),
and may never find a great person to be by my side in this life,
because of this block. im a great guy that has alot to offer, im a
funny, witty, smart, decent looking, nerdy, dorky, artistic, creative,
spunky man. and you cant go wrong with picking me for a tv show, and
knowing your going to help me out with some of the greatest struggles
life throws at people, you cant go wrong..

Thank you for taking the time to read what i had to say and
understanding me. I appreciate it more than i can explain.

~John