VH1 Pickup Artist 2 Casting

I'm sure all of you who were interested in my next video were a bit disappointed not to hear an actual story. Honestly, I don't really have all that many, at least not any exciting ones or ones that can be condensed into 60 seconds, and definitely not any involving dating because I either fail miserably or don't bother trying. But really, if I do get on the show, it may possibly be the greatest thing that has happened in my life and will definitely begin a new change.

So here's the story that I wanted to put to video but definitely couldn't cut down to 60 seconds. And with the time constraints coming down to the wire, I won't be able to put it to video at all, not that I really wanted to as it's a bit depressing and I want to try to keep my videos as lighthearted as possible, despite me still being a tad bit uncomfortable behind the camera.

Anyways, I come from a small town about an hour away from Toledo, where I live now, and have lived there for the majority of my life. The whole time, I've wanted to get out as its never been a place for a guy like me to stay. Of course, it seems like everyone I went to high school with left soon after graduation while I stayed behind for a few more years as I lived with my parents, worked at a grocery store and finished up getting my Associate's Degree in Network Administration at the local Community College. That proved to be a mistake as pretty much everyone in or around my age was gone, leaving me with no one left to talk or relate to (not that I had many to begin with) and, much worse, no chances for success unless I wanted to be a farmer or a truck driver.

That was until one of my friends moved up to Toledo. Soon enough, that became my goal. It took longer than expected but I finally made it. I almost broke down, quit my job and moved out just because I hated that town so much but I lucked into a job and was able to move. I hopped between a couple jobs but I finally settled on one I enjoyed, working at another store, even if I was making less money than before.

So it's been almost a year since I moved out and I realized that my life really hasn't changed all that much. Sure, I'm out of my parents' house and moved in with a few friends but things for the most part have stayed the same. I'm still working a part-time job, even though I'm almost 25, because the job market out here is just as bad because every tech job wants someone with experience, yet no one is willing to give me any. My Associate's Degree is collecting dust and I've even gone so far as to put my autographed picture of Adam West in front of it in the frame. Worse yet, I haven't been able to attract any girls. Back home, if I wanted to pick up a girl, my only option was to go to one of two bars and hope one was drunk enough. Since that's not my style, I've never done it. Now, if I want to pick up a girl, I just have more bars to choose from. That's pretty much all. The only time I'm around beautiful girls is at work, but most of them are too young for me and I don't want to feel like the creepy old guy, even if I already do, despite there only being a few years' difference. They're all pretty much out of my league anyways.

I've been thinking about where my life is going and I can't say that I have a positive outlook on it. Unless I luck into a job in the tech field and finally put my degree to good use, I'll probably be working part-time for a while yet. If I do find a girl, it won't be because she's attracted to me, it's because I know I can't do any better. I've told myself that I'd rather stay alone than settle for less than I believe I deserve but sometimes I'm not so sure I can do it.

Seriously, I'm almost 25 and it's time for me to "grow up". Some of my high school friends are getting married and having kids already. I don't even see myself getting married in the next 5 years, let alone having kids. That's how behind I feel behind everyone else socially. I still feel like a 16 year old who's never gotten to develop emotionally. As I've said before, I still feel like that high school loser that wonders why girls don't notice him, no matter what I do.

Really, that's why I want to be on the show. Being on TV would be fun and the prize money would be nice but I'm not even thinking about the money. What I'm thinking about is the chance for me to finally learn the skills necessary to get ahead in life, not just with women. If I don't get the chance to do that, then I'll just keep living my life as I'm doing now, and I'm not quite sure if that's a life worth living.

I'm not going to tell you how I'm better than all these other guys, because I might not be. I just want to be better than I am now. And I truly and honestly believe that being on this show is the only way I can achieve that.