So after uploading, waiting, realizing that it wasn't approved for some reason, re-uploading and waiting some more, my video is finally up! I hope you all like it but I plan to have more coming, hopefully as soon as this weekend. Honestly, this was my first time making a video of any sort and I had some problems, hence the choppy framerate and the brief nature. But I have an idea for my next video that will explain a little bit more, so stay tuned.
So I'm not here rambling about a video you've either already seen or since ignored, I figured I'd regale you with a story. You see, this past Tuesday, my friends and I went to a Toledo Mud Hens game after one of them scored free tickets. Now, I'm not a sports fan by any means (besides pro wrestling but does that really count?) but it was nice to get out of the house for something other than work or food and a chance for me to catch the national pasttime live in action for the first time in almost 10 years. Overall, it was a good time.
But I had another reminder of my status in life as we left. As we were all walking to our parking spot, we walked past the famous Tony Packo's by the ballpark and past a group of guys. Obviously, they were pretty drunk from the way they were getting us to "join the party" but we just wanted to go home. Not to mention all of these guys were the weird kind of fratboy/redneck hybrid that seems to be very prevalent across NW Ohio. So we say we're not interested and walk on. As we drive off, I ask my friends that it sounded like they were trying to pick us up as if we were chicks so why didn't they try doing that? Lo and behold, just as we drove past, they had picked up two very fine ladies. I'm not saying I want to be on this show to become a douchebag but hey, they are the ones getting all the girls, am I right? I've always considered myself a man of integrity but I'm getting to the breaking point of investing in some polo shirts with insta-pop collars.
Worse yet, on our drive home, that got some of the guys to talking about their wild college parties and how they could've hooked up with many a beautiful woman. All of that made me feel worse than seeing those girls with someone other than me because it just reminded me of all the things I HAVEN'T done. I've always said that I've spent my life avoiding doing things I would regret, only to regret not doing those very same things. I want to live and that's just something I can't do in this place, whether it's the location of my body or of my headspace. That's why I need to be on this show. I'm almost 25 years old yet I still feel like the same kid in high school who wonders why girls don't notice him. It just feels like there's so much of life that I've missed out on that everyone else seems to take for granted.
I could go on but I don't want to depress anyone. Plus, I may go over some of these things in a video. Or maybe not, I haven't decided.
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