VH1 Pickup Artist 2 Casting

Ok I liv ein Hollywood, I should be OVER the beauty thing by now but Im still intimidated by it. Ive tried to pay attention to my body language lately and i definitely notice people acting differently around me. I even felt i had the interest of this girl at the gym today. One thing Ive learned about myself is if i can build up the courage to open (which is rare, the 3-second rule makes me wanna crap my pants, not literally) I am completely lost after that. ive watched last season and watched a bunc h of videos and even taken notes but yet I still freeze up and get nowhere. Needless to say I definitely had a girl interested and just totally blew it today. Plus if my night bar game wasn't bad enough, my day game is far far far worse.......I am just too self-defeating. I think i sometimes fall into the DLV of boldness sometimes trying to push though the fears. I get myself psyched up then when I am around beautiful women i lose it all, i feel inferior, my body language feels weird and unnatural, I cant look her in the eye, my brain goes to mush. Ok late night blabbing but just another typical night of blowing it in the social life.....